While we were sleeping

HEy humanity learn how friend ship is!

2006-09-09T17:25:00.000-07:00

My dimo i may let u down only once................that is when i'll die cus i know nothin about my death................but where ever u are...............there i'll be
She:
Men Of My Life - The Fact
For you… for the only person I’m sure he’ll be there to say “happy 60th birthday” for me if I made it through life….For the person I get along with the most….and I contradict with at the same time, the person that I share with 90% of my memory since I began to see differences …since I became different…since we became different….The only human being on earth and all the planets who I can call to come over and get bored together…. Hours of deep conversations….hours of water pipes…hours of saying nothing but complete bull-shit….hours of sharing silence …. Hours of wandering aimlessly through the city of ours! Hours of dreaming…..For you….cus you became a fact in my life…like eye blinking….ur there in my life….standing still, no “moody storms” could change ur position….no life bricks ….no people’s lies …..no parents’ doubled faces ….nothing….not policy….nor our boy\girl friends can change us cus we’re a fact.The extreme’s mate I’ll call u, my smoking mate, my drinking mate, water pipe mate, every single food u can think of –mate , scissors game’s craziness mate, msab7a mate (that goes under “food” but it’s too special …so u know!)My – f*** all - phrase mate, my Fayrose- addiction mate…. My ‘ego’ mate….For all the success we shared …for all the failureFor all the happy moments….and the worst ones…. For all the times we said nothing about us….for all the times I got frustrated when noticing that you’re the only thing am sure of in my life…..People will never understand…people will never know …people will always be too far…but again “who cares!”People will always think we’re “something” as they say…and yes we are something….at least we’re not nothings….we’re something they fear….we’re them but in the image they can never see in mirrors…. Cus again they fear it but deep inside they like it! They’ll always be jealous! They’ll always be there to eye us….to whisper about us….and we …hehehehe we give a shit!For the dearest ever….for the all times mate….for you alloush …I do love you….it’s simple….it’s pure ! It’s 8 years so far…and many many years to come….. for my only and only best friend or whatever….. I do love you.
Me:
hey.........is the tear in my eye enouph as a comment??!!i can say nothing more..........words were always my game........but as to u..........they are helpless in a way no one can imagine.................my dimo...........

من قلبي سلام لبيروت

2006-07-15T02:07:00.000-07:00

لبيروت....
من قلبي سلام لبيروت....
و قبل للبحر والبيوت....
لصخرة كأنها وجه بحار قديم....
هي من.....روح الشعب خمر ...
هي من....عرقي هي خبز وياسمين.....
فكيف صار طعمها...طعم نار ودخان....
لبيروت .......
مجد من رماد لبيروت...
من دم لولد حمل فوق يدها....
أطفأت مدينتي قنديلها.....
أغلقت بابها....
أصبحت في المسا وحدها...
وحدها وليل.....
لبيروت....
من قلبي سلام لبيروت....
و قبل للبحر والبيوت....
لصخرة كأنها وجه بحار قديم....
أنت لي.....أنت لي.....آه عانقيني أنت لي....
رايتي وحجر الغد و موج سفر....
أزهرت جراح شعبي أزهرت....
دمعة الأمهات.....

أنت بيروت لي...
آه عانقيني.....

كلمات لصنمي الروماني

2006-07-12T03:49:00.000-07:00

احبك .....أحاول عدّ ما أحبه فيك......
عبثاً...,فكلما اكتملت مجموعة نجوم.......
يبرق نجم جديد ليلون أيامي......
يا عمري الضائع......
يا فرحي التائه....
يـــا غرقي...
أسألقاك؟!
أبحث عنك في شراييني....
و بين هدير أحزاني....
في نفخة دخاني...و بين أصابع أنغامي....
أسألقاك.....؟؟!
انطقي يا صنمي......و تفجري شمساً تنير أيامي....
فكلما أشرقت الشمس....أسقمني...وحشة انعدام
ألواني.........
أمختبئة تحت أجفاني؟؟!!
أم أنت مجرد أوهام....؟!
فقد مللت يا قمري........ابتلاع الموج لأحلامي......
عيناك.....
آه من عيناك.....
عيناك سماء براقة......بالماس وأحبِّ ألواني...
سـواد الليل الله يسرقه.....
من عينيك حين تنامي.....
أرسمك بدخان إدماني.....
يا قمراً طال غيابه عن أيامي....
يا قمراً لم يسكن إلا أحلامي....
أسأراك أمامي؟؟!!
سأقدم كلّ قرابيني.....
ونذري إله لله إن وجدتك بأيامي.....
العمر يهرب يا حلمي......
فتعالي نسرق الأحلام....
تعالي...
فمعاً سنسرق الأيام....
لو كنت إلها أسأصنعك....؟؟
لا فويل للإنسان...
أستحمل الأرض قدماكي....؟؟
أسيدخل الهواء رئتاكي..؟؟
لا يا عمري......
فسأجعلك بين صدري و أجفاني......
تمشين على ضلوعي...
وتتنفسين أيامي.....
قد مللت يا حلمي......صمت أحلامي....
ولكن كيف أهرب منك ....وأنت علبة ألواني....
يا حلمي الضائع أتعبني..,إبحاري بحثاً عن موطن أحزاني.....
يا ألمي الموغل في صدري.....أغشاني ضياع شطآني.....
عذراً نزار فحبك الأوحد أيقظني من ضياع عمري بأوهامي....
فأنا لا أملك في الدنيا إلا أحلامي و أحزاني...
فلا أجد قمري....و لا أزل....أبحث عن شطآني...
أسأرسو يوماً يا مسيحي....؟!
أستنتشلني من فقدان ألواني....؟!
أسأجد يوماً يا صنمي...ميناءً لدفن أوهامي؟!.

خدام

2006-02-21T16:06:00.000-08:00

كنت عم اتصفح مقال عن الشريف عبد الحليم خدام و مافي غير فكرة وحدة براسي.......و فجأة بشوف تعليق بيعبر عنها بأفضل طرقة مختصرة...........
(يا ترى كم خدام فيه لسه؟؟)
خدام طول عمرو هيك فبقا اللي بيحرقلي قلبي من جوا.......انو ليش هلق لصار بينحكا ع النفايات وصفقة اللحوم الفاسدة........
شو خدام عمل كل شي المسا وتاني يوم الصبح هرب؟؟؟؟
عيب بقا نحكي عليه........و لازم نشكر الظروف الللي ريحتنا من هيك قذر و ندور ع امتالو ونحكي.......
و اللي بدو يشطف الدرج لازم يبلش من فوقاذا الشعب يوما أراد الحياة لا بد أن يستجيب القدر

My Own Tag

2005-12-28T14:35:00.000-08:00

Now am gonna start a new tag:

3 things I hate in people:
Lying -being mean(Bakheeel)-Not seeing them self before they see the others(blaming people about things they them self do too)

3 things I like in people:
being honest, loving me, Being there for me

3 people I love the most:
Me, Me, Me(just not to say names)

3 things I cant live without:
Music, T.V, Friends

3 celebrities I like:
Joel Bohlouk ,Julia Roberts, George Clooney

3 drinks I like:
Wine,beer,7up

3 songs I like:
saaltak habeby,2desh kan fe nass, Its my life

3 places I like:
Lattakia, Italy, Greece

3 people I tag:
Dimo, Iyad, U

At last 3 people who read my blog I invite to have their blogs:
Bhaa, Lujain , U

My Tag

2005-12-28T14:22:00.000-08:00

Thx dima for tagging me and sorry for being very late .
Ten years ago: I was 10years old,we moved from the place that I got used to since I was born, my parents Bank account started in reducing, a very nice cool kid, playing Fairuz songs on piano,being a son that every parent dreams of.
5 years ago: Being the nightmare for my parents, stopped playing piano(don’t ask me why),having the storm of thoughts about God and these stuff which still on, the first 3 girls who fell in love with me in the same month(ego), our neighbor daughter opened the bathroom widow while she was having a shower to show me her young body(she was 2 years younger than me),I cried coz I just had 270/290 in ninth grad, the death of my grandfather whom I love.
1 year ago: first time in such a big school gash my class used to be 25 student now its more than 800(Economics),Having my first kiss, having troubles with my X- G.F family coz she is Christian and am Muslim, I failed in college with 6 subject(including Arabic and Skafeeh),being mflas(broke) since I paid the university 50566 sp again.
2morrow: Let it be what ever it’ll be

5 snacks I enjoy: chocolates ,Ice cream, cheeseburger, Russian salad, Kebbeh.
5 bands & artists I like: fairuz, Cold play, Samir kuifaty, Andrea Bochelli, Richard clayderman,(I love a lot of rock songs but I don’t have that favorite band)
5 things I like doing: hmmmmm Eating(esp chocolate stuff and ice cream),Smoking Water pipe, watching people through their eyes, watching T.V, Reading
5 things I will never wear: Skirt, leather pants, the stupid blue suite, Slip-mayo, A brow
5 T.V shows I like:
Tom&Jerry ,Friends, Ally Macbeel, Malcom in the middle ,all Disney stuffs
5 people I’d like to meet: Mohammad, Jesus ,Fairus, Miguel Angelo, Leonardo da Vinci .
5movies I like: Devil’s advocate, Pay it forward, Wag the dog, AI, Finding nemo.
5 biggest joys at the moment:
Well guys its tests time so it’s a little hard to find joys so I’ll try,
Saying shits(Msbat), having along chats on mobile, Laughing cuz of political situation, as for ever Smoking Water pipe .
About the 7 things tag:
Se7en thinks I want\like to do:
1)Spending Good times with people I love.
2)Smoking water pipe
3)listening to my fav music
4)Long sleeps
5)Being in places with no people but the ones that am with.
6)watching the sea
7) I never liked old Arabian singers like Om Klthoum,3bd al7leem and these stuff,but really now I love the song enta omry.

Se7en things I don’t want/like to do:
Hearing George Wassouf sound
Playing football
Living with my parents
Meeting wrong people
Watching any kind of sport on T.V9esp football)
Paying bills (esp Mobile ones)
Watching Arabian movies

Se7en things I say most often (with explanation):
1)Cool, when I have nothing to say or when its really COOL
2)Basseta basseta , its just ok take it easy
3)Tnazal 3n deenee , which is Fuck off
4)Klna Bdna nmoot,we r going to die some day(that’s when I feel so down)
5)Mar7 Nmoot alyoom,we r not going to die today,also when bad things are going on my day
6)l3ab b3eed,go away
7)3la haman ya far3oon,I don’t know how to express it

what i feel when am down

2005-11-27T08:25:00.000-08:00

Am sick of screaming through my eyes coz every one too blind to feel………….

my place

2005-11-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

الشوارع في حارتي مصابة بانفصام الشخصية
فتراها أحيانا معجوقة ب السيارات.....
و أصوات أحدث الهتس(hits)
تلعلع في أبنيتها الصغيرة....
و ضوضاء الصيف تخرس ضجيج الجدران....
و فجأة يسود الهدوء و خرس الخريف الذي لا يخترقه إلا صوت فيروز من بيتنا أو من أحدا بيوت الجيران....
و تستطيع أن ترى جمال الساحة و روعة هديل البحر....ولا تكاد أن تغسل الشوارع تعبها حتى تثور العاصفة....
يثور البحر ليبتلع رمال الشاطئ....
و يتساقط المطر ليحارب البلور المغبش من أنفاس أركيلتي.........و يبدأ الجنس العنيف بين الحبيبين الأبوين....الأرض و السماء....متحدين الهواء الفاصل بينهما.......فيمزق الصعق حلكة السماء لينقل قبلات السماء إلى الأرض ويزهر الوصال أشجارا من الضوء الباهر الممتد بين الحبيبين ,و لكل قبلة يهتز الشباك..
و تصم الآذان.
و من جديد يعود الهدوء في عرس ربيعي....مع صوت فيروز و شاطئ استعاد عذريته ليتدفق الضجيج من جديد

back

2005-11-27T08:17:00.000-08:00

Hey sorry am kind of away this period …..so here some of my fights with my key board coming next………..
As to some one……….ALL I CAN TELL YOU…….GOOD LUCK
(don’t cry coz it reached in to an end smile coz it happened)with my best regards.
As to dodo thx for taggn me…..
I’ll do that as soon as I can……….
Iyad….good luck in your job
Bhaa………..just say hi to tartus al3zemeh.
3lla if read this….i just wanna say am really a bad PERSONAL that’s it .
but let me say Rock on Mute(in general)-Nucleardown(the drummer)
one last thing am not gonna talk about politick COZ ITS SO FUNNY now adays…….

yalla gotta go

once again..no satsifaction

2005-10-10T04:04:00.000-07:00

Well I feel like the whole beauty of the world….is just behind a wall that I keep on dying laying on it…while I can find no way in………..
But the idea that this beauty is just behind this thin titan wall
Keeps me shine.
But still:
I CAN GET NO SATSIFACION

2005-10-08T16:38:00.000-07:00

I CAN GET NO SATSIFACION

we and they

2005-09-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

Last day in Japan they did some thing…….
They made children to pull a plane with ropes ………….well it seems mean less at the first…but those kids will never forget that day coz they together were able to move the plane so they really touched the unity power ………………..
Well why don’t we have similar stuff…??
I think its coz no one really care….
Am not talking about the unity we were told at school……..
Am talking about the torn people…..the torn community…….of our own…………………………….
Instead of living the unity we r living the un unity (thx to schools next to others)
Its shame full when students at the very beginnings have to think why our friends go out in religion class…why not the same teacher gives them this subject..??!! ……
Then it starts…..And after 12 years of reminding u r Muslim and am Christian, university comes to show the result of this mindless chasm .
After that there are poor un matched religion couples who felt in love with each other and decides to get married…………………
And its not just like that its even more complicated………
Ur Seni am Alawee she is Armenian
He is room-catholic … …etc..
So wt the hell keeps us so attached and afraid to let the religion stuff in schools go……..
Well is there is any need for some thing that’s helping to crack the community ??!!!
Its not the main reason I know…but it has a strong affection also.

-In Lebanon…there is a project now to put photos from the war period just to keep in mined that Fkn war……………. So it can be never repeated again……….

-Near by my high school there was a sign (I don’t want any one to veil the fault or even to hide the defect and the missing).by L.K.1
Well it always made me smile………….

2005-09-08T14:33:00.000-07:00

بيرن الموبايل رقم غريب.....رد طلع الرقم غلط....قام من التخت لبس و راح عالجامعة.....
ضجران قرفان كرهان حالوا كل يوم نفس البرود نفس الملل بيفيق لحتا يّنكش عن أي شي يقضي وقتوا فيه لبين ما يرجع يصير ليل....يقطّع وقت ع التلفزيون و الكمبيوتر بعدين يروح يقعد بالتخت.....و يغمض عيونو و يتخيل حالو بالمكان قصدي بالحياة اللي بيحب يكون موجود فيها....................
وهيك يوم ورا يوم و اسبوع ورا اسبوع ...لحد ما فاق هيداك اليوم....يوم عادي شمس ودفا...وهوا نضيف بعد ليلة مطر و عواصف .....حس انو في شي عم يدخل جواتو
Some thing Very deep inside …… filling his soul with unusual peaceful feeling, that day he started trying to keep that peace as near as possible
He never tried to know why he is that way….just wishing it’ll last 4 ever was enough 4 him…..
That day he found a feeling in the streets in every thing….suddenly every thing had a color ……………he just fell in love with that strange light………. when he walked in the streets he saw- for the first time- the people in the streets he looked in their eyes deep in their souls
He had relations with every person he saw just throw eyes………he started to believe again that he is alive….
He noticed the way that people look at him……he loved it………….so he broke down his room walls raised his eyes and started to see …………..
To see the very others…………

Light

2005-09-08T14:32:00.000-07:00

Even if we don’t have much time………….
But maybe a light will shine in that very short time……………that’s much better than imagining the light 4 a life time…………..

2 prove zt z world s flat

2005-09-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

AM just sick of living every single day keep convincing my self that the world is flat so every one else can sleep well the night………
if they cant see …….its not my problem .
Well I have ideas I have thoughts not because am special but because am human not just a self moving 95 kg of flesh…………..so I have the right to live according to my Owen rules I hardly accept living under the roof of a general rules just because the gaggle wants so ,but I just do not want to be drifted with the drift

Da Vinci Code

2005-09-08T14:24:00.000-07:00

I wrote this some time ago after I read Da vinci code
Well I’ve always read this words, heard them,
Asked to believe in them since I was 1year old till now……(the truth will set u free)
But the only truth is there is there is no truth, behind each wall there are millions behind ech door there are thousands well. its always just another step
For the unknown that Humanity is heading to….
So then is the Da vinci code tru??
Well……..i don’t care……….maybe its not tru
But am sure that The HOLY bible is’nt…….just as the HOLY Quran isn’t………..just the word holy we r programmed to get it :what ever comes after this world is from un-human power….
A great hand so believe it ‘N the parts that doesn’t make sense to ya r coz ur not perfect
Dose Jesus have children??oops Da vinci was a GAY??!! For ur sake who cares………what that would make a difference well I don’t care if Jesus was a gay……….coz that’s not the point….
Well the matter that we should open our eyes …….
Hey we have a crime here……
-she creates and hold the hole humanity in her warm body ………..but she were made of Adam!!
Well the opposite makes more sense ………
Every thing happens 4 reason??!!Well we can find a reason 4 every things

Mfshkaleh…

2005-09-06T06:22:00.000-07:00

Mfshkal (upside down) is every thing around me…………….here in my life every thing mfshkal…..coz every thing just goes the perfect-wrong way ,each time I say….yobee I got it!!… I find my self in the no where again………
Well (there is another world inside of me that a human never see……..some where in this darkness there is a life that I cant find maybe its too far away or maybe am just blind)